updates!

ok, swim meet last night, kicked ass, again.
My stomach has hurt like hell lately...not a hunger feeling, but a sick kind of feeling. The last two nights in a row it was horrible, i just wanted to feel better, so i tried to throw up. Now if you've read my blog before, you know that I don't purge. Never have. But I did try to make myself throw up a few times, just so that my stomach would stop hurting...well, i've now discovered that its impossible for me. I had my fingers as far down my throat as they would possibly go, and nothing. Not even a little gag. Jeeze, and I thought no gag reflex was a GOOD thing. haha whatever. At least i'll never be tempted to purge. Anyway, stomach feels a little better today, but i've taken it easy with the eating..only about 350 cals or so at most. Stepped on the scale, and it says 140!!

TEN POUNDS LOST!

oh dear lord, i don't think i can express how amazing that feels. And it's not like last time the scale said 140...this didnt come out of nowhere. I've been losing steadily, the scale was at 142 for a long time, the past 2 days it's been 141, and today it's been 140 all day! yes! As excited as I am now though, I can't even imagin how it's going to feel when I see the 130's again.

The coolest thing is, losing the first 10 pounds really hasn't been that hard, you know? Yeah ok, I wish it would have happened a lot faster, but i'm not starving myself and I don't exercise until I pass out and I don't purge...I mean, this is a routine that I can actually keep up with! And if I keep losing at this pace, I can see at least 129 by the end of the summer, EASY!

I haven't seen 120's on the scale since I was a sophomore in high school. that will be SO exciting! GAHHHH!!!

Ok, I know I have more to write about, but I can't think about it right now. Just like lilah said (of course, we've decided we're pretty much the same exact person! lol) I really miss wilted rose...come back dear so we can hear about your progress and be excited with you!

Thank you to all of my beautiful followers, i hope things are going well with you and you are reaching your goals...PLEASE drop me a comment and let me know what is going on in your lives...i love them, i truely do, and usually (unless i get really busy then forget) I love to write back. So let's hear whats going on!

oh, and I hope you enjoy the new layout! It was time for a change in more than just the way I look. It's not perfect, but this new blogger editing system and I didn't really get along all that well, so this will have to do for now.

LOVE YOU ALL!