i ended up eating today. and i am about to eat some ice cream even though i don't want to and i'm not hungry. something weird is going on with me
recently i've been getting this strange sensation, and i don't really know how to describe it other than the fact that i'm out of touch with reality. I mean, i know what is going on around me, i could carry on a conversation and i probably look and act completely normal, but i feel like im floating away or something. Like, i'm looking at myself from a distance, or watching my life through a video camera. I feel drunk. I can't concentrate on anything no matter how hard i try. This has happened to me four different times that I know of, and 3 of them have been within the last 2 weeks. it's the strangest feeling in the world.
I think it might be because my sugar is low. I'm hypoglycemic, and every now and then my sugar drops and i get shaky, weak, incredibly nervous, unbalanced....i've dealt with this for a while, but i now know exactly when it's coming on and if i just eat something small I feel better within 10 minutes. I think this new feeling is probably low blood sugar, but i don't get shaky, i don't feel the intense NEED to eat at that moment, i just don't feel like i really exist. And it hasn't gotten better after eating. It's happening right now, if you all can't tell by my weirdness.
I'm kinda scared. I tried to go to the health clinic on campus but they were closed for the day, so i'm going to an ice cream social later in hopes that the calorie ridden food can raise my sugar more and make it go away? I have 2 tests tomorrow that i need to study for and i can't study when i feel like this.
Anyway, the reason that i'm writing about this because i was wondering if you all have ever experienced this before...sans drinking or drug use lol
i'm sure we've all probably experienced low blood sugar once or twice before given that we don't eat a lot, so i'm just curious as to whether this has happened to anyone.
Also, i've been researching my symptoms online, and it's basically given me everything possible. allergies, hypoglycemia, hypothyroidism, multiple sclerosis, brain tumor..you name it, i could have it, BUT it also keeps coming up with generalized anxiety disorder. I've suspected before that i've had that even though i don't feel stressed now, didn't feel stressed when it's happened before, and have never had a panic attack. My heart isn't beating fast, i'm not breathing hard, idk. Anyway, Lilah i know you said you had GAD...is this familiar to you at all?
Anyway, sorry to bother you guys with this. I know i should see the doctor and i will but i cant right now so i'm making you all my doctors for the moment haha just curious to see if you all have ever felt this way before. Hopefully not. I'll let you know how everything turns out