i don't really feel liek writing a lot tonight.
niagra was pretty cool...i could have seen it all in 30 minutes though instead of spending a full 2 days there, but whatever, i love having time with my family. Eating didn't go so well, i expected to not be able to count my calories while i was there, but the family also stopped at like the only 2 fast food places that I didnt look up calories for...figures.
today went pretty well eating wise.
I wanted to try to fast again today, and am really happy to say that i distracted myself with another day of cleaning shit out of my room, so i made it all the way until dinner. Im guessing i had around 600-700 calories today, not bad. i feel like i look very fat today though. like more than ever. I want to lose weight SO badly...to look in the mirror and not feel like a cow, to not pick at every flaw of my body, to not wake up every day and pinch the skin aorund my bones in hopes that my fat has magically disappeared. I NEED to lose weight, badly. im getting very dedicated and almost obsessive with this diet though lately, and it seems like i'm never cutting back enough. Even when I fasted, i still thought i could go longer...exercise more.
I wonder how out of control im going to let this get. Lately i've been thinking a lot about this and i keep asking myself the question "if i woke up tomorrow and was magiacally my ideal weight, would I...actually COULD i stop?"
could i stop coutning calories?
could i stop obsessing?
would i finally be happy with myself and quit?
It's scary, but i feel like i couldn't...like this is some necessary part of my life now that i can't live without.
If i woke up tomorrow at my goal weight and skinny i don't think i could stop this restriction.
what do you all think you would do?
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
success!!
i did it!
i made it then entire day without a SINGLE calorie entering my body!
Honestly, i didn't torture myself either. It was really pretty easy. I started cleaning the house as soon as I woke up and I didn't stop all day...I cleaned the house then went specifically to my room and cleaned out all this old junk I had. it was so liberating. Plus, it took me seriously like forever, so by the time I even got to sit it was 8 o'clock or so. that's the first time I actually noticed that I was hungry (and that's only because i started watching the damn food network) but i resisted, and i made it the whole day.
I drank a shit ton of water too today. I have a feeling i'm gonna have to piss all night tonight haha and all the cleaning was bound to burn some calories right? I mean it was like a solid 10 hours of cleaning. shit, i could eat off these floors! ...or walls..or carpets...or even the fucking bathroom floors for as deep as i cleaned.
anyway, i feel great, but i don't think i'll make it too long tomorrow. i'll probably eat as soon as possible. I'm super hungry right now because i took it upon myself to prepare diet-wise for any possible fast food stops on our vacation this week. i went to every fast food website i could imagine and compared seriously like every menu item to find out the foods with the lowest calories and seriously, those fast food places are some disgusting little fuckers. Really, i knew they were bad, but when you take the time to actually look at all their menu items...jeeze! And seriously guys, i suggest that every one of you do the same thing i did and make a list of possible menu choices from each place for when you have to get something! Don't fall for those salads...in a couple places (especially burger king) you can almost have several cheeseburgers for the amount of calories that is in one salad!
anyway, tomorrow will be a lot of driving and a lot of shopping. we're driving up to niagara falls, but we're gonna stop at a few outlet malls along the way...super excited for the clothes, and hopefully i'll look much skinnier after my first ever fast!
Ok well i have to go to sleep, i'm literally EXHAUSTED for all the work and i need to get my mind off food. Plus, i have to wake up super early tomorrow to leave for vacation!
I seriously love you all so much and thank you for the wonderful comments/advice i've been getting! I haven't had the time to respond yet but i really do read and appreciate every single one and every single post from the blogs i'm following! they make my day :D love you ladies and stay strong whjile i'm gone these next few days...hopefully we'll all have a lot to share when i return!
i made it then entire day without a SINGLE calorie entering my body!
Honestly, i didn't torture myself either. It was really pretty easy. I started cleaning the house as soon as I woke up and I didn't stop all day...I cleaned the house then went specifically to my room and cleaned out all this old junk I had. it was so liberating. Plus, it took me seriously like forever, so by the time I even got to sit it was 8 o'clock or so. that's the first time I actually noticed that I was hungry (and that's only because i started watching the damn food network) but i resisted, and i made it the whole day.
I drank a shit ton of water too today. I have a feeling i'm gonna have to piss all night tonight haha and all the cleaning was bound to burn some calories right? I mean it was like a solid 10 hours of cleaning. shit, i could eat off these floors! ...or walls..or carpets...or even the fucking bathroom floors for as deep as i cleaned.
anyway, i feel great, but i don't think i'll make it too long tomorrow. i'll probably eat as soon as possible. I'm super hungry right now because i took it upon myself to prepare diet-wise for any possible fast food stops on our vacation this week. i went to every fast food website i could imagine and compared seriously like every menu item to find out the foods with the lowest calories and seriously, those fast food places are some disgusting little fuckers. Really, i knew they were bad, but when you take the time to actually look at all their menu items...jeeze! And seriously guys, i suggest that every one of you do the same thing i did and make a list of possible menu choices from each place for when you have to get something! Don't fall for those salads...in a couple places (especially burger king) you can almost have several cheeseburgers for the amount of calories that is in one salad!
anyway, tomorrow will be a lot of driving and a lot of shopping. we're driving up to niagara falls, but we're gonna stop at a few outlet malls along the way...super excited for the clothes, and hopefully i'll look much skinnier after my first ever fast!
Ok well i have to go to sleep, i'm literally EXHAUSTED for all the work and i need to get my mind off food. Plus, i have to wake up super early tomorrow to leave for vacation!
I seriously love you all so much and thank you for the wonderful comments/advice i've been getting! I haven't had the time to respond yet but i really do read and appreciate every single one and every single post from the blogs i'm following! they make my day :D love you ladies and stay strong whjile i'm gone these next few days...hopefully we'll all have a lot to share when i return!
fast!!
today my whole family is gone. They're moving my sister into her new house (well, all of her furniture anyway) so i'm home alone for the majority of the day. Last night after sulking about all the calories vacation tempts me (and basically causes me) to consume, I was struck in the head with a brilliant idea: tomorrow you should fast.
duh! ive been wanting to fast for forever, and have just never been able to. I don't have to opportunity much (since my parents would definitely notice if I didn't eat dinner) and when I do, I've never been able to make it the entire day. I'm determined today though. On friday last week the scale finally said 140 again, and ooohhhhh if I could finally get down into the 130's i don't know what I would do. I would probably piss myself with excitement.....
or maybe I would just be really happy about it. No one likes an incontinent 18 year old.
so i'm going to lose this weight. I have a month left until school starts, and tomorrow I leave for real vacation to Niagara (which will most likely mean a lot more eating) so today I need to prepare my body for those calories. Tomorrow I will also try not to eat very much. My nutrition teacher once said that it takes two days of absolute fasting for your body to exit the starvation mode and to start burning fat. well, I only have one day, but tomorrow will be a full day of driving, so hopefully I can make it a while without eating. Hmm....maybe some allergy medicine? My allergies have been horrible anyway, and it will cause me to not be hungry. We'll see. I definitely don't like taking a bunch a pills to lose weight...it just seems too unhealthy to me, but just once....
I'm being forced to play housewife today. while the family is gone, i'm in charge of cleaning the entire house. Joy. I don't really mind though, it keeps my mind of being hungry and it burns calories :) I'm drinking a TON of water today too. that's one of my biggest problems...i hate drinking. at meals, i'll drink like 2 full glasses of water, but any other time its almost torture to drink. My body just doesn't need the liquid. But it's so much better for you, and helps keep you full.
And hello there new followers :) nice to see you guys. take of you shoe, kick back, relax, and stay a while. Or don't. I'm just delighted to have you drop by now and then. I'll try my best to be a good hostess and entertain.
Ok, well i've taken a long enough break from the cleaning...i need to get back to that. prepare for possible updates today, but starting tomorrow I will be on vacation and probably won't have a lot of opportunities to post, so stay patient. blog often so i have some juicy stories to read about your wonderful strength and progress when i return! I love you guys!
duh! ive been wanting to fast for forever, and have just never been able to. I don't have to opportunity much (since my parents would definitely notice if I didn't eat dinner) and when I do, I've never been able to make it the entire day. I'm determined today though. On friday last week the scale finally said 140 again, and ooohhhhh if I could finally get down into the 130's i don't know what I would do. I would probably piss myself with excitement.....
or maybe I would just be really happy about it. No one likes an incontinent 18 year old.
so i'm going to lose this weight. I have a month left until school starts, and tomorrow I leave for real vacation to Niagara (which will most likely mean a lot more eating) so today I need to prepare my body for those calories. Tomorrow I will also try not to eat very much. My nutrition teacher once said that it takes two days of absolute fasting for your body to exit the starvation mode and to start burning fat. well, I only have one day, but tomorrow will be a full day of driving, so hopefully I can make it a while without eating. Hmm....maybe some allergy medicine? My allergies have been horrible anyway, and it will cause me to not be hungry. We'll see. I definitely don't like taking a bunch a pills to lose weight...it just seems too unhealthy to me, but just once....
I'm being forced to play housewife today. while the family is gone, i'm in charge of cleaning the entire house. Joy. I don't really mind though, it keeps my mind of being hungry and it burns calories :) I'm drinking a TON of water today too. that's one of my biggest problems...i hate drinking. at meals, i'll drink like 2 full glasses of water, but any other time its almost torture to drink. My body just doesn't need the liquid. But it's so much better for you, and helps keep you full.
And hello there new followers :) nice to see you guys. take of you shoe, kick back, relax, and stay a while. Or don't. I'm just delighted to have you drop by now and then. I'll try my best to be a good hostess and entertain.
Ok, well i've taken a long enough break from the cleaning...i need to get back to that. prepare for possible updates today, but starting tomorrow I will be on vacation and probably won't have a lot of opportunities to post, so stay patient. blog often so i have some juicy stories to read about your wonderful strength and progress when i return! I love you guys!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
hiding out
my calorie intake in the last 24 hours is through the roof. there is absolutely nothing else I can say.
I went to a party last night and got wasted, as always. about 4 games of beer pong + one huge mixed drink with wiskey + 3 shots of wiskey + 3 jello shots= one drunken frenzy.
So much fun though. AND I resisted the urge to make-out with this guy who was completely flirting with me the whole night. Is it sad that i'm proud of myself for that? I don't give a flying fuck. I'm just doing whatever makes me happy. Plain and simple.
Anyway, last night, somewhere between stumbling around this house covered in glow in the dark paint and making friends with this random guy who brought a fucking didgeridoo to this party....i got the hiccups. badly. damn beer. so after like a half hour of dealing with this i decided i'd had more than enough. I had to do something to make them go away. I looked like an ass. Anyway, my solution? Go make myself throw-up. Now, here's my logic (and yes, i WAS actually talented enough to think my way through this while I couldn't even walk a straight line) Hiccups are a spasm of the diaphragm. Caused by an excess of alcohol in my system. if i throw up, not only would I be getting the alcohol out, but I would put enormous pressure on my diaphragm so it would shock it into quitting. Sounds plausible, right? Went to the bathroom, and tried for like 10 minutes to throw up. Like I stuck my fingers so far down my throat I swear I felt my stomach (exaggeration, of course.) And I gagged a few times, but nothing else. I seriously can NOT make myself throw up. plus, I figured "i'm so drunk, this won't even feel bad. And goodbye calories." wow, the inner thoughts of an alcoholic. pure poetry. Anyways, nothing. I am literally incapable of purging. God forbid I ever accidentally swallow poison or something, cause that shit wont be coming up.
So this morning, my friend wakes me up and wants to go to qdoba for a breakfast burrito. Anyone who has ever been drunk knows how good the breakfast the next morning is (sans hangover, of course. But oh, i'm just fortunate enough to never get those) completely enjoyed every delicious bite of that fattening burrito....until it was gone than I hated myself. fuck you, delicious food, fuck you.
Long story short, i'm taking today as a free day (and considering last night's binge as part of that.) family--well, mostly my mother--is trying to decide whether or not to go to the lake for the next 2 days or not. Mom is getting more or more frustrated that she can't decide, so i'm hiding out in my room right now in a feeble attempt to avoid the inevitable explosion that is my mother's rage. Somehow it will all be my fault too. I love living at home.
Dear college,
My second year of freedom in your comforting dorms in exactly one month away. I've missed you so much...I think about you every day and it kills me to be apart from you for so long. I look so forward to the smile that will cross my face the moment I see you again. Time cannot move quickly enough. I think I should move in.
My most sincere love,
Frenzy.
dear god i think i may still be drunk. I'm gonna go before I act any more like a freak. love you ladies, keep losing!
I went to a party last night and got wasted, as always. about 4 games of beer pong + one huge mixed drink with wiskey + 3 shots of wiskey + 3 jello shots= one drunken frenzy.
So much fun though. AND I resisted the urge to make-out with this guy who was completely flirting with me the whole night. Is it sad that i'm proud of myself for that? I don't give a flying fuck. I'm just doing whatever makes me happy. Plain and simple.
Anyway, last night, somewhere between stumbling around this house covered in glow in the dark paint and making friends with this random guy who brought a fucking didgeridoo to this party....i got the hiccups. badly. damn beer. so after like a half hour of dealing with this i decided i'd had more than enough. I had to do something to make them go away. I looked like an ass. Anyway, my solution? Go make myself throw-up. Now, here's my logic (and yes, i WAS actually talented enough to think my way through this while I couldn't even walk a straight line) Hiccups are a spasm of the diaphragm. Caused by an excess of alcohol in my system. if i throw up, not only would I be getting the alcohol out, but I would put enormous pressure on my diaphragm so it would shock it into quitting. Sounds plausible, right? Went to the bathroom, and tried for like 10 minutes to throw up. Like I stuck my fingers so far down my throat I swear I felt my stomach (exaggeration, of course.) And I gagged a few times, but nothing else. I seriously can NOT make myself throw up. plus, I figured "i'm so drunk, this won't even feel bad. And goodbye calories." wow, the inner thoughts of an alcoholic. pure poetry. Anyways, nothing. I am literally incapable of purging. God forbid I ever accidentally swallow poison or something, cause that shit wont be coming up.
So this morning, my friend wakes me up and wants to go to qdoba for a breakfast burrito. Anyone who has ever been drunk knows how good the breakfast the next morning is (sans hangover, of course. But oh, i'm just fortunate enough to never get those) completely enjoyed every delicious bite of that fattening burrito....until it was gone than I hated myself. fuck you, delicious food, fuck you.
Long story short, i'm taking today as a free day (and considering last night's binge as part of that.) family--well, mostly my mother--is trying to decide whether or not to go to the lake for the next 2 days or not. Mom is getting more or more frustrated that she can't decide, so i'm hiding out in my room right now in a feeble attempt to avoid the inevitable explosion that is my mother's rage. Somehow it will all be my fault too. I love living at home.
Dear college,
My second year of freedom in your comforting dorms in exactly one month away. I've missed you so much...I think about you every day and it kills me to be apart from you for so long. I look so forward to the smile that will cross my face the moment I see you again. Time cannot move quickly enough. I think I should move in.
My most sincere love,
Frenzy.
dear god i think i may still be drunk. I'm gonna go before I act any more like a freak. love you ladies, keep losing!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
so far, so good
Since I quit swimming, i've now vowed to myself that i'm REALLY going to work hard on not eating so much. It's easier now, because I don't have team dinners to go to, etc. BUT now I don't practice and coach twice a day, so i'm really not burning any calories :( I want to start running again, but it's just so HOT outside, and even worse, it's HUMID. it just feels horrible out there, and i'm a terrible runner to begin with so if I take it up now i'll probably die out there haha anyone have any good suggestions for fun workouts I can do in my house?
and sorry i took down the pictures...I really wanted to keep them up this time, but I saw on my profile tracker that someone from my city had been on to view my profile. It's kidna strange because it just showed up when I clicked "view post" and it said someone from my city had visited 0 seconds ago...so at the EXACT same time I had clicked view post, but it's not supposed to show up when I look at my own profile. I don't know, it's kinda weird, but I just freaked out and i'm not ready for anyone I know to be reading this, so I just thought it was better to take them down. Sorry :/ hopefully i'll work up courage again soon.
I don't really know what else to post. Shit, i'm boring again. My apologies. Hopefully i'm going to another party this weekend, so maybe then i'll have some awesome drunk stories to tell you about or something. Haha, i don't know.
I'm going to break down and weigh myself again tomorrow. I promised myself once a week only, but i can't stand it. Plus, i've been doing really well with my diet these last two days. Probably no more than 800 cals a day, which is way lower than I thought I could get at this point. I've found my new love for Jell-o, and it's only 10 calories, so forget 100 calorie packs, you can eat 10 jello cups for that! lol
OH! and I found this website...
http://www.skinnygossip.com/starving-tip-of-the-day/
i don't starve myself completely, you all knwo that, but it has some awesome tips for just avoiding food in general when you want to give in and snack or binge or whatever. ch ch check it out
hope all is well on the skinniness front. battle on, ladies!
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!
and sorry i took down the pictures...I really wanted to keep them up this time, but I saw on my profile tracker that someone from my city had been on to view my profile. It's kidna strange because it just showed up when I clicked "view post" and it said someone from my city had visited 0 seconds ago...so at the EXACT same time I had clicked view post, but it's not supposed to show up when I look at my own profile. I don't know, it's kinda weird, but I just freaked out and i'm not ready for anyone I know to be reading this, so I just thought it was better to take them down. Sorry :/ hopefully i'll work up courage again soon.
I don't really know what else to post. Shit, i'm boring again. My apologies. Hopefully i'm going to another party this weekend, so maybe then i'll have some awesome drunk stories to tell you about or something. Haha, i don't know.
I'm going to break down and weigh myself again tomorrow. I promised myself once a week only, but i can't stand it. Plus, i've been doing really well with my diet these last two days. Probably no more than 800 cals a day, which is way lower than I thought I could get at this point. I've found my new love for Jell-o, and it's only 10 calories, so forget 100 calorie packs, you can eat 10 jello cups for that! lol
OH! and I found this website...
http://www.skinnygossip.com/starving-tip-of-the-day/
i don't starve myself completely, you all knwo that, but it has some awesome tips for just avoiding food in general when you want to give in and snack or binge or whatever. ch ch check it out
hope all is well on the skinniness front. battle on, ladies!
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
pictures pictures pictures!
The little tornado that was forming by my house one night! It looked much stronger/bigger than this, but I can't find the better picture right now!
ok so I finally have some pictures to show you guys! They're not all of me, some other random things that I wanted to throw in there too, but I will include a few of me. I haven't had a chance yet to take pictures of my stomach (aka my fat) but I'm going to try to do that tomorrow...I'm just too tired from all the dancing I did tonight at the banquet! More to come on all of that tomorrow...enjoy!
Monday, July 19, 2010
weekend of madness!
I got back from CJ's today, and dear lord, did I have fun! Just like I thought I would. I swear to you all, everyone should have a best friend like CJ is to me. Whenever we're together we jsut get CRAZY and have the best times, and this weekend was no exception!
So I told you that I was going to the gay bar to see a drag show. What. An. Experience. LMAO a lot of people thought we were crazy for wanting to go see something like that, but seriously, you just have to go into it with the expectation to be entertained and you will have a great time. I don't even know what to tell you about it or how to describe it and make it sound so fun but it really was. Basically, we saw 4 drag queens come out and pretend to sing a song while they walk around and gather tips from everyone. doesn't sound that exciting, I know, but it's just being there and seeing it for yourself. They had hilarious names like "sha-freak-a jane" and "Penny Tration" <---hahah that one is my absolute fave! The gay culture just kinda fascinates me a little and i love gay guys, so it was just awesome! I have pictures of them later, I think i'll post them tomorrow with several other random pictures for you guys...it's always fun to see pictures!
The whole reason I went up to see CJ this weekend was to go to a concert with her and some of her other friends on sunday. Sunday was probably the craziest day I've had in so long...I basically stayed drunk for a solid 8 hours at least. Solid. Her parents don't care that we drink at all, so she had a few friends over and we just sat outside and drank beer all day. I know, I know, the calories. fuck it, I refuse to count liquid calories...and to me theyre pretty much worth it. I was planning on taking it pretty slow while we were pregaming for the concert, but then one of her friends suggested playing Beer Ball, and it was all downhill from there. Have you all ever heard of/played this game before? I had only seen it once before this weekend and never played it, but basically my partner and I were REALLY good at it. I'm not gonna take the time to explain the rules right now (i'll write them at the bottom of this post later) but the better you are, the more you're going to drink...so I chugged about 3 beers in 30 minutes in the hot sun with not so much on my stomach. From there, I was feeling pretty good for a while :)
Got to the concert, CJ used her fake ID to buy us both beers and mixed drinks so I was having the time of my life. and oh goodness, let me tell you, CJ's brother is possibly the hottest guy ever. And sweet. And a gentlemen. Bascially, I want to marry him. He's completely not what my type usually is at all, and hes a year younger than me (not such a huge deal) and he doesn't want to go to college right now (which IS a huge deal to me) but ughhhhhh hes perfect in every other way. I've met him twice before and only really gotten to talk to him once, but I never thought he was interested. CJ says he's a "charmer" and all the girls love him but he never dates any of them. Shit :(
We were at the concert though and I was dancing and singing at the top of my lungs and he danced with me several times (he hadn't been drinking either, he's recently decided that he wants to really obey the bible which says 'obey the law of the land' so he's committed to not drinking at all anymore until her turns 21. *swoon* how mature/cute of him) so if he was dancing with me and wanted to be around me a lot that night then....idk? maybe? I can't let myself get carried away. Plus, CJ has no idea that I even think he is cute, so I don't want to get myself too excited for when I get to see him on my next visit. I don't want things to be awkward around CJ you know?
Other than that, I don't really knnow what else to post about this weekend. It was just kinda one of those things where you have to experience it to know why it was so fun.
Apparently I've also been nominated for the blogger addict award? wow, i'm really flattered lilah, thanks so much! I don't really know what that's all about yet though, not completely anyway, so if you all could help me out with that I would be most greatful. Am I just supposed to do my 5 likes/dislikes then name 5 other bloggers I love? Would love to do that, but i'll make a separate post for it tomorrow or something, i gotta think about this ;)
I'm yawning now, I need to go to bed. Tomorrow (hopefully) i'm gonna post a ton of pictures for you allof different things (including myself) and possibly include that dreaded stomach shot? You all know i'm not one for posting pictures of myself, but I know how much I love them on other people's blogs and how inspiring they are, and that is what I want to do, I want to inspire you guys! So tomorrow I will do that again, and hopefully leave them up this time if I can work up the courage...Love you guys, stay tuned!!
Rules of Beer Ball
--4 players, divided up into teams of 2.
--Each team stands on opposite sides of the table (just like in beer pong) and each person has an UNOPENED can of beer on the corner of the table in front of them.
--One player takes a ping pong ball and throws it at an opposing player's can on the other side of the table.
--If the ball misses the can, no one drinks and it's the next player's turn to throw.
--If the ball hits the can, the thrower's partner opens their can of beer and begins to chug until the player whose can was hit has run and gotten the ball and placed it back on the table.
--once the ball is back on the table, the player has to stop drinking their beer, and the next player takes their turn throwing.
--the first team to finish both of their beers wins.
I tried to find a video but couldn't find a good one..this is bascially how it goes except they are playing with 4 cans per team instead of two and they're making both people on the team drink at the same time...
So I told you that I was going to the gay bar to see a drag show. What. An. Experience. LMAO a lot of people thought we were crazy for wanting to go see something like that, but seriously, you just have to go into it with the expectation to be entertained and you will have a great time. I don't even know what to tell you about it or how to describe it and make it sound so fun but it really was. Basically, we saw 4 drag queens come out and pretend to sing a song while they walk around and gather tips from everyone. doesn't sound that exciting, I know, but it's just being there and seeing it for yourself. They had hilarious names like "sha-freak-a jane" and "Penny Tration" <---hahah that one is my absolute fave! The gay culture just kinda fascinates me a little and i love gay guys, so it was just awesome! I have pictures of them later, I think i'll post them tomorrow with several other random pictures for you guys...it's always fun to see pictures!
The whole reason I went up to see CJ this weekend was to go to a concert with her and some of her other friends on sunday. Sunday was probably the craziest day I've had in so long...I basically stayed drunk for a solid 8 hours at least. Solid. Her parents don't care that we drink at all, so she had a few friends over and we just sat outside and drank beer all day. I know, I know, the calories. fuck it, I refuse to count liquid calories...and to me theyre pretty much worth it. I was planning on taking it pretty slow while we were pregaming for the concert, but then one of her friends suggested playing Beer Ball, and it was all downhill from there. Have you all ever heard of/played this game before? I had only seen it once before this weekend and never played it, but basically my partner and I were REALLY good at it. I'm not gonna take the time to explain the rules right now (i'll write them at the bottom of this post later) but the better you are, the more you're going to drink...so I chugged about 3 beers in 30 minutes in the hot sun with not so much on my stomach. From there, I was feeling pretty good for a while :)
Got to the concert, CJ used her fake ID to buy us both beers and mixed drinks so I was having the time of my life. and oh goodness, let me tell you, CJ's brother is possibly the hottest guy ever. And sweet. And a gentlemen. Bascially, I want to marry him. He's completely not what my type usually is at all, and hes a year younger than me (not such a huge deal) and he doesn't want to go to college right now (which IS a huge deal to me) but ughhhhhh hes perfect in every other way. I've met him twice before and only really gotten to talk to him once, but I never thought he was interested. CJ says he's a "charmer" and all the girls love him but he never dates any of them. Shit :(
We were at the concert though and I was dancing and singing at the top of my lungs and he danced with me several times (he hadn't been drinking either, he's recently decided that he wants to really obey the bible which says 'obey the law of the land' so he's committed to not drinking at all anymore until her turns 21. *swoon* how mature/cute of him) so if he was dancing with me and wanted to be around me a lot that night then....idk? maybe? I can't let myself get carried away. Plus, CJ has no idea that I even think he is cute, so I don't want to get myself too excited for when I get to see him on my next visit. I don't want things to be awkward around CJ you know?
Other than that, I don't really knnow what else to post about this weekend. It was just kinda one of those things where you have to experience it to know why it was so fun.
Apparently I've also been nominated for the blogger addict award? wow, i'm really flattered lilah, thanks so much! I don't really know what that's all about yet though, not completely anyway, so if you all could help me out with that I would be most greatful. Am I just supposed to do my 5 likes/dislikes then name 5 other bloggers I love? Would love to do that, but i'll make a separate post for it tomorrow or something, i gotta think about this ;)
I'm yawning now, I need to go to bed. Tomorrow (hopefully) i'm gonna post a ton of pictures for you allof different things (including myself) and possibly include that dreaded stomach shot? You all know i'm not one for posting pictures of myself, but I know how much I love them on other people's blogs and how inspiring they are, and that is what I want to do, I want to inspire you guys! So tomorrow I will do that again, and hopefully leave them up this time if I can work up the courage...Love you guys, stay tuned!!
Rules of Beer Ball
--4 players, divided up into teams of 2.
--Each team stands on opposite sides of the table (just like in beer pong) and each person has an UNOPENED can of beer on the corner of the table in front of them.
--One player takes a ping pong ball and throws it at an opposing player's can on the other side of the table.
--If the ball misses the can, no one drinks and it's the next player's turn to throw.
--If the ball hits the can, the thrower's partner opens their can of beer and begins to chug until the player whose can was hit has run and gotten the ball and placed it back on the table.
--once the ball is back on the table, the player has to stop drinking their beer, and the next player takes their turn throwing.
--the first team to finish both of their beers wins.
I tried to find a video but couldn't find a good one..this is bascially how it goes except they are playing with 4 cans per team instead of two and they're making both people on the team drink at the same time...
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