confessions

i have been such a coward. when was the last time i posted on here? and i know exactly why too, im ashamed. im ashamed and embarassed an flat out mortified. i thought college would make it easier to lose weight. despit my best efforts, however, i have somehow still managed to gain EIGHT FUCKING POUNDS! im so confused. ive even been trying to convince myself to purge lately, but with no success. i feel like a cow. i am a cow. i have all the inspiration in the world (boys, tattoo, spring break) but i still cant manage to lose. i need help. seriously. i just dont know what to do....